Oh Canada

Traveling has always been on my mind. From time to time, there have been many places I have wanted to travel and visit. However, I just wouldn't want to go unless I've already been to Canada first. I've felt if there was any first place I would travel to, it would HAVE to be Canada. I've never had a specific date in mind. I've known my impossible life for awhile, and besides all of the other besides and reasons to not go, I would feel so much better if I went to Canada. Travel back to Canada for every other traveling trip? I don't know if I would do something like that. It almost seems choosing places to travel could compare to choosing places to bar hop. ha! Not a serious comparison, or that much of a comparison at all. I think going to Canada would put me out of some of my pain. I know some people can be symbolic. Just wearing a t-shirt with a Canadian symbol wouldn't do justice enough. I'm going to Canada, and I'm probably going to buy a Canadian souvenir shirt anyway. On top of all that, I shouldn't have to travel to Canada in a literal way to begin with to give myself the symbol: Now, I am officially too good for you since I've gone to Canada. I know that I shouldn't have to do that, or structures should EVER SERIOUSLY be that way. I'm not just doing it for the symbolism of it though. I've been wanting to go to Canada for a long time and see what it is all about. I need this trip and I just have to have it........My taxes didn't work out the way they were supposed to. Student loans ate a lot of them up; I just can't let those student loans burst my bubble. I'm upset because I know I won't be able to afford a vacation to Mitzi in addition. It is what makes me feel torn the most. However, she is so young that the non-vacation circumstance won't have much of an effect on her this year. I think the first time I went on vacation was when I was in 4th grade. If it was younger, I wouldn't have even remembered it. There are future years ahead where I continue to hope that I have the reasonable income that I should have. I hope that I either find new structures or old structures will collapse over itself the right way because of just how flawed the foundation was. There have got to be jobs out there that lack of tyranny, gangsterism, and poor ridiculous/desperate/irrelevant employment structure. (I don't know how long I will be the same broken record.) Canada will make me feel better. Even if I get rejected from some Canadians, I have a feeling I will feel at home when I get there. (Don't know if I would literally want to live there because of the cold weather climate. Maybe Canada just makes itself so worth it regardless of its climate.)