Benefit of the Doubt

You're still mostly dancing with my Mary Jane. A lot of things I won't be saying much about some things I will talk. It is still painful to have to talk to you. I see your persistence again. While I have given you both the criticism you asked for and I believed with what your persistence was supposed to mean: You're not giving up on making me your conquest. You're not giving up on leading me on just so you can either hurt me again or pretty much the first statement, where you seriously want to be the one who is 100% rejecting me and there is nothing about me that is not rejecting of you (conquested loser)... I'm just going to give your persistence the benefit of the doubt, and think that there must be some reason you are remaining persistent. You're still obviously the only one who has had any sort of chance with me, and the odds being lessened more and more through the years. I have never seen myself as Bree Ann's lesbian, not ever will. I have never been willing or agreeable or have any kind of life invested in the made up polygamous marriage. I still see you mostly both as Mr. and Mrs. Calvin along with more putrid things as rabies, savagery, desperate and crackhead stupidity. Whatever crackhead bondage victimization game is going on; I am nowhere in the least being fooled. I am nowhere in the least feeling justified when it is her turn to be the one behind bars. This is nothing but another cheap game you want to play with me, where I am not persuaded that you mean it or have ever meant it. As the above criticism discusses, I just assume this is more of your arrogance and cheapness that doesn't understand what it means to pay a price. Personally, I don't know how you will ever even find a way to make up for it. Maybe you have been forced by someone else to suffer the consequences, or maybe you really do take me seriously and could be suffering over the things that I have been yelling at you for. Besides believable criticism, I am just giving you the benefit of the doubt. I don't know whatever is going on with Katie's husband David, but I am pretty upset at the way he wants to play games or kid himself or threaten me with whatever bullshit violence he has. If he feels helpless with me, he can stay feeling helpless, because he is seriously not a challenge and has no chance with me. Whatever arbitrage you want to make up with him, is just your own bullshit Jon. I know some recent gossip with you can be taken in 2 ways... In taking it with you, do you really think you have me persuaded of any sincerity at all? Do you also think you could win my trust? I don't know what to say to your persistence anymore Jon. Nothing has changed about my idealism. I am still the same seriously offended woman. I am not changing for you over anything. If there is something else you are expecting, I don't know what it is you are expecting. Maybe you did think I have changed and was terribly mistaken. You can still go on your own way. I just don't know your persistence with what it is.