NO.

Can't believe you're going for it Jon. Despite past arbitrage abuse, and refusing to be mocked if it is not arbitrage abuse, and seriously believing you are seriously making a pass at me through "Christi Brinkly," I have to say something more for myself. .....It really does surprise me to hear that you regret yourself. It really does surprise me. However, your sweet talk is not enough. Nothing from you will ever be enough. Even if I won a lawsuit against you where I sue and get money because of your abusive history, or if you were to personally pay me off, nothing will ever change the terrible and rapist actions you have already made. I see you already lying, judging, and harassing me for the sake of my dad. I still think you are both sick in the head, and I still hate your intentionally disturbing rape in full. Don't think I don't get my dad's sexual abuse, and don't think I think you are the only man who would tag team him. You will always be too sick in the head and I'm sick of being reminded and disturbed from your past sexually and mentally disturbing actions you made the choice to do. And in "Like A Stone,": I already said as usual not all the lyrics match. I have no regrets and feelings of wrongdoing. Outside of the song, I've ALWAYS KNOWN THAT TRUTH ABOUT MYSELF AND I'VE ALWAYS KNOWN PLENTY OF OTHER TRUTHS BESIDES THAT. I haven't forgotten about your Calvin either and the number of gang raping women you lived to subject to and torment me with knowing I never would feel inferior...... You are instinctively right about the type of man I am trying to attract, and I'm sure you are not the only man who thinks he has what it takes to keep me with "The Police." I really have issues with the way I haven't been noticed the right way, or the ways I have never been rescued at all, if so many people see the obvious things going on in my life. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I HAVN'T BEEN RESCUED. I WILL NOT COMMIT SUICIDE. I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY I HAVE NOT BEEN KILLED YET, OR WHATEVER THE HELL IT IS MY KILLER HAS BEEN WAITING FOR. I DON'T KNOW WHY I AM THE DAMNED PERSON THAT I AM WHO SUFFERS GREAT AMOUNTS OF INHUMANITY. I DON'T FUCKING KNOW ANY REASON KNOWING THERE WAS NEVER A GOOD REASON WHATSOEVER TO MAKE AND KEEP MY LIFE SO DAMNED. ........AND I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU THINK YOU WOULD SERIOUSLY STILL HAVE A CHANCE WITH ME. THE ANSWER IS NO

As the Sarah Turns

I really know, the real Superman does not exist. If there really was any man under super man pressure, I have some wonder about it, but not too far. Do some men know the non-existence of Superman so much that the idea of being a protector or rescuer is just a mundane thing? Are there some men out there that really burn when they get the extents and impossibilities of being a superman? I've already met the polar opposites of Superman who've lived to damn me and would probably throw a fit or maybe even bomb something if I did ever find a Superman. If there were someone who burned to be superman, I wonder how they would settle the extreme opposing ends to find some peace in themselves in the relationship. How would the guy make the reality come together? Another reminder of snowflakes. After so much arbitrage is used, not everyone has the same thoughts or ways to decide on things...... Then comes my own perfectionist criticism which may or may not be realized: Brawn vs. Brain. Even though Brawn vs. Brain looks easily summed up I do have my own personal sophistication. Not every man thinks with his Brawn or Brain all the time. They can be the typical man. If he does mean his rescue or his wit, just how much does he mean it? ................... Anyway... Which guy do I want to start with first. Right now I have this serious need to get the facts and know the truth and put myself out of whatever misery. I have this anxiety that I can't stand right now. I'll start with Edward. I've seen signs of him everywhere. Both positive and negative. My instincts just don't trust Edward right now. Although he has one agenda, he does seem like he is being a little swooning to me. He still hasn't called. Maybe he does still have some feelings and doesn't want to give up on me. A part of me is happy to hear that, but another part of me has an instinctive distrust. Maybe he wasn't responsible for some of the arbitrage, but I'm questioning what is he guilty of? I have seen that innocent smile before where I know the smile is not innocent. It comes from the biggest, sickest sex offenders of them all. I hate to have to question Edward, but is he really guilty of some of the extreme sexual harassment I have just experienced in the last couple of days? They gave one sign of who was responsible but I see how Edward could be framed to be guilty in the arbitrage. I can't just be blindsided by that or left to wonder if or how much of a sick and violent sex offender Edward is. It really is not ok. I want a serious punishment or murder for how I was sexually offended. ............. For the next, I'll talk about Travis. I really am wondering what he is thinking. Shawn has been an impossible local this whole time. Whether Travis knew the enemy Shawn was, he now knows. I wonder how impossible of a local Travis is going to be. I wonder if he is going to be the same distant but there person, or if he is actually going to say anything about it. Other possible connections, I wonder how impossible they are. I really do wonder if Travis is a bisexual swinger, or mostly gay, or mostly straight. Does he intentionally want to hurt me with Shawn? If Travis does want something to do with me and not let go, I think I do deserve to know some of his truth because of the broadcast movie: The Secret Life of Walter Mitty. Does Travis have an impossible God complex, or does he want to have a sit down conversation? (without making it to awkward)........ I did get a message from Blake. Blake, if credit is due you, I will thank you too for giving me the message over a year ago that I made my wonderful discovery of being pregnant. At Goodwill. If there is something you want, you can only manipulate so much. I know you are associated with Maggie, but maybe it has nothing to do with Maggie at all. .................. I've had a few other guys on my mind and will eventually have more of a thought, but a lot is up in the air. I am taking note of things I am seeing around. While I may not see everything going on in the job market, I am picking up on some info. I'm not going to say much about it for now, and can just wait until however long I can wait..........

Is anyone in their senses anywhere?

I still can't see who holds the largest amount of responsibility in their hands with the ways I am getting terrorized and raped, but I hope there is a large number of people who commit suicide. I hate the psychotic crackheads or haters that can't get it out of themselves how much they deserve to terrorize and rape me. I know there was never any excuse with the rape and hate crimes I have been forced to be aware of and suffer and be victimized. There has never been a point proved. I hate people with everything I have in me and I don't know how to scream for help anymore than I already have. No one was ever right or righteous to begin with. THERE ARE PSYCHOTIC DISTURBING RAPIST MURDERS AND THEY FUCKING KNOW WHO THEY ARE AND FUCK THE TIMES THEY GIVE THEMSELVES SO MUCH PRIDEFUL CREDIT OF THEIR RAPE AND THEIR "WIN" I fucking hate the desperate pigs people are. I fucking hate people who think they are superior to me. I fucking hate the sick fuckbags they are and they way they do nothing but terrorize me to death. They scream for more attention or for me to scream more all the time. I FUCKING HATE WHOEVER GAVE THEM THEIR POWER. I FUCKING HATE THE WAY THEY THINK THEIR TERRORISM AND RAPE IS RIGHT. I FUCKING HATE THEM FOR THINKING IT WAS RIGHT. I FUCKING HATE THE PEOPLE WHO KEEP LYING AND GIVING THEMSELVES OR SOMEONE ELSE THE CREDIT. I FUCKING HATE THE NUMBER OF WIGGERS OR NIGGERS THEY ARE. I HATE THE NIGGERS AND WIGGERS GLORY. I HATE THEIR SICK FUCK MINDS AND HOW NOTHING HAS STOPPED THEIR MADNESS. I HOPE EVERY RAPIST GETS MURDERED FOR THINKING THEY ARE RIGHT IN THEIR RAPE, SEXUAL OFFENSES, AND TERRORISM. I HATE THE WAY THEY THINK THEY CAN PROVE ANYTHING. SUCH RETARD SAVAGE BARABARIAN FUCKBAGS. I HATE NO ONE RESOLVES THE PSYCHOTIC ANARCHY IN MY LIFE. I HATE CRACKHEADS AND DRUG GANGS AND RAPE GANGS. YOU PROVED NOTHING YOU FUCKING SORE LOSERS.